Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Katniss' Lamb and Plum Stew



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Doctor Who: An Unearthly Child

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

True Whovians

I have now watched the first two disks of the very frist season of Doctor Who, the 1963 Doctor Who, and I can say it was at the same time very different and very much the same.  First off it had the feeling of a show even older then its time yet there were elements that have not changed in the entire time it's been on the air.  The first thing I noticed was the music, it was created back then with manual sound editing, recording static, backwards feedback, forwards feedback, and white noise machine (among other tools).  It was the time before synthesizers you see.  It's just amazing to see the magic that was made without the use of ProTools and other digital tools.  Another thing were the daleks, they were made they shape they are so the operator/actor inside could sit down.  And yes, that is a plunger at the end of their arm thingys, it was all they could afford at the time.  The third thing is the tardis, it looks almost the same and sounds just the same.  This I knew yet it was still such a pleasure to see.  The thing that, not so much confuses me as makes me a bit curious, is the fact that there is a character named Susan who calles the Doctor 'Grandfather.'  I'm not sure at this point they had the idea that the Doctor was actually a different species, (Time Lords).  So there are four characters, the Doctor, a young girl named Susan, and two school teachers; Ian and Barbara.  They are accidentally on these misadventures with the Doctor who owns this time machine/space ship.  An interesting fact I learned was that the character Susan named the Tardis.  (Time and Relative Dimension in Space)

I'll keep you all updated with my Doctor Who progress.  For any of you interested on following along with me (and have Netflix) I found a spectacular list on the internet to help you organize it all.  Doctor Who DVDs, chronologically posted by Baff.  I don't know if I'd call myself a 'true whovian' but I do enjoy this show and the progression of the story and I really look forward to filling in all the gaps.

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Tuesday, November 1, 2011

How Gossip Girl Helped Me Lose Weight

The last three weeks were filled with the unreal, the beautiful, and the inevitability tragic.  (Or, more accurate, the inevitable tragedy.) For the first two weeks, however, I was blissfully out of touch with the world back home and enjoying a right of passage for any young 20something, the famous 'Euro Trip'  Yes, I've been to Europe before but never without the guidance and restrictions of my parents. This time I was on my own, accompanied only by my boyfriend's little brother and a multitude of maps, tickets, and the 'How-To Speak French' book he brought with him.

But more on my trip later.  Right now I want to tell you about the new amazing 'weight loss' idea I had.  Not that I need to lose weight, but after walking around Europe for two weeks I want to keep that good feeling exercising gives you.  Now, I hate exercise, but I hate Gossip Girl more.  I suppose that's not fair, I've never watched the show, yet I tried to read and could not stand the book.  I'm a bit picky when it comes to my television programs, I won't watch just anything.  Usually if it does not have scifi, fantasy, or ridiculous amounts of comedy I'm not interested.  I do not like Dawson's Creek, The OC, etc.  In fact, the only 'teen drama' show I enjoy (or used to at least) was goes there.  Honestly though, I more or less know I'm not gonna like watching Gossip Girl.  My little sister likes that show, she thinks everything I do or like is...weird.  Yes that's right Nerdfighters, she things you're weird!  I love her, but she watches Gossip Girl and spends her money on clothing.  I spend my money on hard-drives.  But I shall embark on this feat, because for every Gossip Girl episode I watch, I will work out for the entire time.  That's right, 45 minutes every other day.  If, that is, I can work it around job interviews and making YouTube videos.  I'll try and keep posting here as often as I can so you can check to see what episode I'm on and how my workout progress is going.  I'm not going to weigh myself, it's not about weight loss, its about being healthy.  So from now on, when I mention what Gossip Girl episode I'm on, I'm more referring to how many time's I've worked out since Oct. 28th  Congrats, our first blog inside joke, feel special.

In other news, it's November, NaNoWriMo.  Even though I'll be cranking out at least 1,667 words a day I want to write on this blog more as well.  If you are reading this and want to agree with this idea, please let me know in the comments what you want to hear about.  My Euro Trip? the job hunt? NaNoWriMo news? Let me know.  Also, I have a new love of the British television show Doctor Who and after getting all caught up on episodes starting in 2005 and ending now, I have decided to start from the very start in 1963.  There a few things I am not giving up despite my recent unemployment, and one of those is Netflix.  (Another is VidCon2012)  Oh, and I'm 'sargentj' on if you want to follow my progress.  Comment with your username and I'll follow you!

Stay nerdy, you guys.

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Thursday, October 6, 2011

Finding My Home Online

The internet is a strange and feral beast and even from my early experiences with it (aim chat-rooms with complete strangers) I've always been a bit uneasy with making friends on it.  As time went on my feelings about that have changed.  Yet, there's still those rare times where I get the feeling that someone just outright hates me.  Now, this post is not intended to fish for reassuring complements or loath in self deprecating anguish.  Seriously, not everyone is going to like everyone.  That's just a fact of life.  I want to talk about the vagueness of the internet.  A silly joke or poking fun of a friend could be taken seriously, it's hard to tell and the internet lends itself to passive aggressiveness.  I'd be lying if I thought from time to time that someone online just outright dislikes me.  Most of those times the evidence is, again, vague and probably misunderstood.  However it's the feeling of uncertainty that gets me.  I'm a sensitive person and it does not take too much for me to feel hurt.  Because of this I am going to make it my personal goal to be as genuine as I can online.  I know it's so easy to be something you are not online.  Hiding behind the pixels and the 0s and 1s is so tempting but faking 'it' is even more frustrating.  I've been feeling cluttered with my online presence lately, making too many promises to too many people.  Starting...well now, I have decided to change my focus a bit.  Change my 'image' to one that requires less maintenance but more work...if that makes any sense at all.  I took a break from the internet last Saturday and came back to a flood of emails, notifications, questions, etc.  The two weeks I'm about to take off will lead to who knows what... The thing I discovered from my break (which consisted mostly of me reading a book in my backyard in the sun all day) was that I need to sort my priorities out.  I need to stop worrying that people hate me.  I need to do what I want to do and create a hierarchy list of websites I give my time to.  My personal site needs to be much higher on that list then it currently is.  (Most people don't even know it exists.)

Perhaps I'm not even worried at all, perhaps I'm not upset or even care if I'm well liked or not.  Perhaps simply writing a stream of conscious blog post that will get read by very little people is therapeutic enough to put me at peace and realize that 'finding my home online' means very little.  But probably it's the anticipation of my European adventure I will leave for in less than two days.  A two week break from the internet (save email and twitter to stay in touch with my loved ones) and a chance to really experience things in a way I have not for the past month or so.  Maybe it's the open-ended-ness of my future.  Whatever it is, it doesn't matter so much. Not really.

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Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Survey for Teenagers

If you are between the ages of 13 and 19 and have some spare time, I would love it if you would help me out by answering the following questions.  You don't have to answer any that make you uncomfortable, but do as much as you can.  This is to help me out with my NaNoWriMo novel this year as I am writing it from the perspective of a 15 year-old girl.  If you know any more teens that you think might do it as well, send it their way. I really appreciate it!  Just send your answers to my email ( and comment on this post once you have.  Thank you so much!

Your name, your age, your gender.

  • Give a two or three word description of yourself.
  • Do you have any nicknames?
  • Where do you live?
  • Why do you live there?
  • What are your strengths?
  • What are your flaws or weaknesses?
  • What is the coolest thing right now?
  • What kind of music do you listen to?  Favorite band/artist?
  • What is your personal clothing style?
  • Do you wear makeup?
  • Do you wear glasses/contacts?
  • What do you like about school?
  • What do you hate about school?
  • What are your friends like?
  • Do you play with toys? What's your favorite?
  • What is your favorite thing to do in your spare time?
  • What is your family like?
  • Do you get along with them?
  • What type of people do you get along with?
  • What type of people do you not?
  • What do you think of the opposite sex?
  • Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
  • What are your goals?
  • Who are your role models?
  • Favorite book?
  • Favorite movie?

  • If you are a youtuber:

  • How long have you been a 'youtuber'?
  • Who are your favorite youtubers?
  • What was your first video like?
  • How often do you post videos?
  • Do your IRL friends know about your 'youtube life'?
  • Does your family?
  • What do people think about it?
  • Do you ever get sick of youtube?
  • What's the best part about being a Youtuber?
  • What's the worse?

  • If you are a Nerdfighter:

  • How long have you been a Nerdfighter?
  • What is your favorite John Green book? Why?
  • How many of your IRL friends are Nerdfighters?
  • Ever met another Nerdfighter randomly?
  • How did you become a Nerdfighter?
  • What do your non-Nerdfighter friends think about it?
  • Which Hogwarts house do you most identify with?
  • What's the best part about being a Nerdfighter?
  • What's the worse?

  • Anything else you think I need to know about teenagers before I write my novel?

     Thank you so much for compleating this, you're a huge help!


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    Worse thing this week: Pretty much everyone I love is going to be in Europe without me.
    Best thing this week:

    Thursday, August 11, 2011

    Internet Friendships

    I've had 'online friends' for years. Getting the internet was such an exciting thing for me as a kid. It meant I could find a world of people that liked the same things I did and would talk to me about them anytime. So believe me when I tell you that I'm no n00b to having 'online friends'. I am new to having online friends that I can actually see and talk to and are video creators like me. It's been a weird couple of weeks but ever since Vidcon my 'online' friendship count has astronomically increased. I believe it was partially due to the comfort of meeting these people in person first and the sense of comradery that was thick in the air. We could all be ourselves and not be judged for this one glorious weekend.

    What I real want to address though is the term 'online friend' and it's stigma. At a time it was thought to be a creepy concept worthy of a visit by Chris Hansen. In the last, oh I don't know, 10 years or so it's gotten a little more respect and credibility. Facebook, Youtube, Twitter, smart phones, and such are to thank for making communicating on the internet mainstream.  The problem I seem to run up against is the canyon-like separation I feel between my friends I met (or mostly talk to) on the internet and my friends I made at school and actually see on a semi regular basis. (at least more than my so called 'online friends')  Yes, the two worlds tend to collide at times and the term IRL (in real life) is pointless because the internet is still real life, and I hate the term 'online friends' almost as much as I hate the term 'viral video' but can't seem to find a better way to explain it to my (oh dear) 'IRL' friends...

    I guess my general frustration stems from the fact I'm so used to hanging out in groups (in high school, at college, parties, etc.); that to have all of these individual friends I interact with online (even though some of them tend to know one another anyways) and no place/ability to hang out with offline in a group (google+ chat rooms do not count...not like I've been invited to one yet) Yes there are BlogTV shows and such, but again, online meet-ups does not count! I guess I could just be wishing to relive Vidcon, like so many of the people who were there do. Or maybe I want all of my high school and college friends to attend Vidcon and interact with my 'online friends' and accept it and say it's cool and not weird.

    I don't know why I'm having such a struggle with this.  I guess I want to make sure my 'online friendships' don't dwindle and that we don't loose contact.  It's so much easier to forget friends when you can't hang out with them in physical places. I don't want that to happen. So, to all my 'online friends' (ugg, is there a better term for you?) though I can not take you all out to coffee like I want, please let me take to you to virtual coffee. What I mean is, go bother me on one of my many online locations, go, do it now, just say hi or something or comment here. And to my old friends whom I've shared experiences with and grew up with, lets go out for real coffee sometime.  Lets not let it slip into the classic: "We never hang out, lets hang out more!" because we all know that never actually leads to any hanging out.

    Tuesday, August 9, 2011

    Keep Calm and Pottermore

    I was never super into Harry Potter growing up.  Sure I read the books the moment they came out and saw all the movies in their first week.  I even dressed up to the premieres a few times.  But I never really considered myself a part of the Harry Potter fandom.  Looking back I realize that Hanson is to blame.  The first Harry Potter book came out in 1997, the same year Mmmbop was a chart topper.  I am a Hanson fan.  Always have been, always will be.  Because of my love of the brothers, I was pretty tunnel vision with my fandoms.  Harry Potter was great and all but my heart belonged to the blond boys who knew how to play music and harmonize. (Sorry boy bands, dancing does not do it for me like a guy with a guitar, drum set, piano, etc.)  Then, about a year later, the musical Cats was on my radar.  It was the perfect fandom.  Small and therefore supportive and friendly (for the most part).  The lose plot allowed for creative fan fiction, and the beauty and originality of the costumes was the best thing to draw which I did in my endless notebooks of fan art.  I realized my two big loves were classically unliked and I probably would have been much better off donning a scarf and wand rather than a wig and tail.  It did not matter though, we like what we like and should not have to apologize for it.  That being said I did get deeper into the HP fandom as the books got better and better; the last two being my favorites.  Then I found YouTube and wizard rock in the past year.  Yes, I know I'm late to the (Yule) ball but I feel like I don't have to have been there from the beginning to be a part of it.  Ever since the hype of the final movie and Pottermore I've been a non-stop Potter-obsessed nerd.  (Much to the annoyance of everyone around me.)  I joined Pottermore and even helped a friend who is a bigger Potter fan then me but had no internet that week get in.  It's been an interesting year, but I'm as excited for the new 'thing' as the next fan.  So to aid to my new obsession, I've filled out a Pottermore survey I stole from Hayley G Hoover.  Enjoy!

  • What's your Pottermore username? SparksRain117

  • What House do you think it sounds like? It could be Gryffindor or Slytherin I think.  Sparks raining down makes me think of dueling and those two are always dueling. 

  • What House do you want to be in? Gryffindor. My friends think I should be Hufflepuff (not sure if they think it's cause I'm nice or cause they want to make me mad.)  I've been know to eat books so Ravenclaw is an option.  Yet, I'm obnoxious and bossy and insistent on being the one in charge, so really it could only be Gryffindor.  I have no idea what I'd do if the site makes me a Hufflepuff, nothing against the badger I just would never live it down with my friends.

  • Does your username relate to you at all? Out of my options, 'WolfCat' seems as it would have been a closer fit (another option I had) but I really really like SparksRain!  It's like how I chose my house against what was 'obvouse' for me.  I can't always be predictable.

  • What kind of wand would you wish to get? Lightweight with a Unicorn hair in it I think.  Something that would be good for Transfiguration, I like Transfiguration. 

  • Are you pure, half-blooded or Muggle born? Half-blood I think.  My dad would defiantly be a wizard but I'm not so sure about my mom.

  • Which day did you get into Pottermore? Day 4.

  • What shape is your Patronus? An ocelot.

  • What does your boggart look like? Coping Haley here because it's so true.  "Like Mrs. Weasley's-- the death of someone close to me."

  • Would you rather be an Animagus or a Matamorphmagus? I think I'd be an animagus.  However, that could be my old desire to be an Animorph surfacing.

  • If you were an Animagus, what animal would you be? Some sort of feline, that's for sure.  I want to say a lion but if I wanted to be unsuspecting I'd probably be a domestic cat or a feral cat.

  • Thanks for reading!  Fill out the survey in the comments if you like, it'd be fun to see your responses.

    Monday, August 8, 2011

    TJP - Update - Collar

    Hello all!
    I am proud to say the first piece of my Jemima costume is finished.  The collar!  It's a found belt with metal spikes screwed into it.  Easy to make but non the less I'm still really proud of it.  I am currently working on the legwarmers and am about to buy some crepe wool for the wig.  It's been so long since I've made a Cats costume, it brings me back to when I was 14. haha.  

    More updates as they come!
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    Not Looking Forward To: Seeing off Jim at the airport in a few weeks

    Monday, August 1, 2011

    The Jemima Project

    So it look as if I'm back in the Cats costuming world after, what, 7 years?
    I have been planning a Jemima costume for almost a year now, but due to moving more times then I had planned, the project never got started.
    So today, August 1st, I am officially starting this costume.
    If I can get it done by October then I'll be happy.
    Now, a few notes about the project:
    >I am creating every part of the costume myself.  No commissioning.  This way I get to experience the process and find out what I'm good at, what I'm great at, and what I should probably commission from other people in the future.
    >I am documenting the entire process via video.  I'll post the episodes on my youtube channel here.  Please subscribe, thumbs up, and favorite! It means so much to me!
    >This is a "project" so there is the chance I will fail. (aka not getting it done for Halloween or screwing up so badly I wind up losing lots of money)  I will be using theCCDB as my main source of guidance and help, so thank you in advance, CCDB members, for all of your contributions.

    The thread with photos and updates will be here:

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    How the Youtube Playroom misspelled Jellicle: Jellickle

    Tuesday, July 5, 2011

    Days AFK

    This last Tuesday I was struck ill by a virus and, despite my wishes, stayed home sick from work.  I ended up nearly bedridden for three days followed by a busy weekend which most likely prolonged my ability to get well.  Now, I am not telling you this for your sympathy, but instead to share with you a discovery.  It's no news that time away from the computer and the internet is a good thing every so often, I just had no idea how good.  For someone who spends all her free time and all her work time behind a screen of some sort, it was very hard to avoid checking YouTube and Twitter for days at a time.  I'm very glad I did.  Being unconnected was so freeing, I actually felt more creative and wanted to write more and learn more and expand my mind and experiences.  It's hard to describe, but not knowing what was going on in the internet world cured me of my writers (and creativity) block.  And was not the overdose of cough syrup that propelled this surge of inspiration, simply the lack of instant digital stimuli.  I'm not saying I'm giving up the internet, not even.  The internet is a very wonderful platform I intend to be involved in for my life.  It's just nice to pretend it dose not exist a few times a year.

    Saturday, June 25, 2011

    Things done recently

    1. Wrock concert - check
    2. The Long Holidays EP Release party/concert - check
    3. Youtube-y concert - check
    4. Meet Meekakitty and curse her for her vlogs (responsible for my youtube obsession) - check

    5. Get confidence advice from 13-year-old with 6 times as many youtube subscribers as me...(and proceed to link you to her recount of last night rather than write my own.) - check
    6. Feel like I've missed something in the past few years - check

    I love internet bands, but man...did I feel old being there...I swear I'm not a creeper!  hahaha.  I'll see you all at VidCon.
    Much love!

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    Tuesday, June 21, 2011

    In Which I go to My First Ever Wrock Show

    I am a relative n00b to the whole YouTube Nerdfighter Wizard Rock...thing.  I feel a little (a lot) late to the game, as I'm a shocking 25 years old with a YouTube channel that is not even a year old.  Luckily for me, this community I am embarking upon is one of the most friendly encouraging communities I've ever come across.  I mean, I'm a big Hanson fan (yes...that Hanson...don't judge) and have been since I was 11.  Well, not to hate on the Hanson fan community, but I've never really felt like I was ever a part of it.  Fans were not the most gracious at concerts and always had the air of 'ownership' about their fandom, as if trying to say they were the 'bigger fan'.  or something.  Now, I've been in this fandom for 14 years and still feel pretty alone in it.  Within minutes of entering Kendal's house in Santa Monica for this small concert, I felt welcomed.  People said things like 'Hey, I saw you on the Facebook Event page." and "Wow, this is your first wizard rock concert?!? I hope you like it!"  These people are awesome, the fans and the musicians alike.  I felt no sense that I was less important for being a n00b and no one crowded the performers (don't get me started about that at Hanson show...uggg)  I mean, sure, Alex Carpenter had his fair share of fan girls, but there was no crying, tugging, or pushing.  They were respectful, excited but not over the top.  I was really happy to see Lauren Fairwether play and The Whomping Willows and Justin-Finch Fletchley were great as well! (I've never listened to either of their music before)  I'd write up a whole concert review but I think I'll just direct you to Eden's review.  She's one of the fans I met there.  We both asked Lauren for a "Hi girls, it's Monday!" for our respective collab channels (lol) it was the epitome of adorable.

    Here's me and Lauren:

    And here's Eden and Lauren:

    Apparently I'm better at focusing a camera than her dad, lol...(j/k her dad was so nice, taking her on Father's day and everything!)

    I filmed some of the performances and a surprise performance at the beginning.  If you're a wrock fan, you should watch and if you're not...through caution to the wind and see if you enjoy it.

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    Currently Reading: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (for the 2nd time)

    Saturday, April 30, 2011


    [30] BEDA 2011

    WE MADE IT!!!
    April 30th is here and that means we made it through BEDA.
    Also, I made it through VEDA, check out today's video here.
    More importantly though...the stress of LIFE and all things I faintly hinted at aka complained about these last few days, has resolved itself!
    I am overjoyed!
    And to put icing in the cake, we made it into the top 10!!!
    Thank you to all who voted for us, we are so grateful!
    It's up to the judges now.
    Life is back to making sense, thanks for sticking with me =)

    Friday, April 29, 2011

    really winding down

    [29] BEDA 2011

    I can't believe April is not over yet!
    It feels like it should have been over a week ago, haha.
    There is so much planned for the next three months of my life that I wish it'd just start already.
    Oh complaining...I've really learned to be patient.

    Today I think I will relax a bit, I've been stressed and I just want to do a lot of nothing.
    I might just sit around and play the Sims (don't judge).
    I have a lot of projects and important things coming up but nothing I HAVE to do today.
    After work, I'm gonna take it easy because I deserve it and this week has been so busy.

    Peace out dudes! ^_^

    Thursday, April 28, 2011

    two more days

    [28] BEDA 2011

    We are almost there, readers.  We have almost come to the end of BEDA and the wonderful month of April.  I hope by now you recognize my sarcasm.  April has been anything but wonderful.  My birthday aside, there has not been much evenly remotely close to okay.  Don't worry, the light is still there, it just flickered a bit more today.  When I said yesterday was a mess of roller-coser ups and downs, I had no idea that today would be that but tenfold.  I'm not exaggerating, it was that much more insane.  As always, I'll keep you all updated as to my position.  Right now its: 'crossing fingers with some hope' so do the same for me and we'll get out of this alive.

    WE are behind...

    Wednesday, April 27, 2011

    and the plans keep changing

    [27] BEDA 2011

    The emotional roller-coaster I've been on in just the last few hours has been so weird an intense and awful and hopefully worth it.  The little 'light at the end of the tunnel' I kept thinking I saw but kept flickering out all week (quite a stress-inducer)  might finally be real.  Might.  I know not to count my chickens before they hatch.  Lets just say, they're getting ready to. Oh man, I can't even celebrate yet but I know that this weekend I will be...or I will be in tears starting over.  I just won't know till tomorrow what the deal is.   I'm a patient person, I can wait.  I'm busy enough that I can fill my time with things to do before said thing arrives.  Like fun things like cons.  I can wait for July to come, not a problem.  But for some reason this mess has left me with butterflies and a loss of appetite all week.  It's not healthy for me.

    Fear not fine blog readers, for this weekend will be the end of BEDA but not the end of my blogging! I will try and do this more here.  It's just hard to keep up with when I make videos all the time and update my website a lot now.  But this blog is far from professional, I need something like this in my internet life in addition to my art.  Who knows, writing might become a professional thing for me one day.  For now, however, it's just fun and easy and far from my best skill.

    So there you have it.  Expect tomorrows blog to be strange.  It might be long, filled with my venting.  It might be short, not saying much about what ends up happening at all.  It might even be another cop-out four sentence blurb.  I can't say...but by the time you read it (probably) things will be very different for me.

    Wish me luck.

    Tuesday, April 26, 2011

    Getting back into it

    [26] BEDA 2011

    I've been reading over a few of my favorite bloggers BEDA and other blogging challenges posts and have come to the (obvious) realization that mine lately have been more than lacking.  There is a perfectly reasonable reason for this and if I explained it to you you'd understand, but I'm not going to so there for I remain guilty of lame blog posts.  I'm not even sure if I deserve to say that I participated in BEDA this year, most of my posts have been short or just a photo (Just cause Hayley G. Hoover did it once does not mean I get to do it every other post...)  I just seemed to have forgotten how therapeutic writing can be in times of stress.  It really helps.  Just, not always... hence the lame five sentence blips.  Well, there are only five more days of BEDA so I think I am going to end that starting now.  I attempted to stop that yesterday by posting a passive aggressive post about my life and it cause a friend to worry about me.  Sorry about that, that was high school Jenny creeping out.  (Back in my LiveJournal days I was quite the typical emo teenage girl.)  Even though I'm not going to write about all the gory details of my current life struggle, I do promius to let you 'all' know when things are back on track.  SO you can stop worrying (...Andrea*)

    Anyways, if I can force myself to look on the bright side (I should really try and think like Rosie from my favorite old school Nick show, Space Cases**)  then I can see that there are some things to get excited about right now.  The first being that, as I type this, we are at number 10 in the Check Your Focus contest!!  Help keep us there (or get us higher) by voting every day here:

    In other good news I am currently planning a Euro-Trip.  I have traveled a bit over the years but I've never been to Europe without my parents, so I'm excited, scared, overwhelmed with the idea I might (will) be doing this. Who's coming with me is still up in the air but the countries I'll visit are set in stone (unless I add some).  Right now I'm looking at plane tickets, they are very pricey but worth it.  We'll see what happens...

    Oh and if you want some free goodies, there is currently no one in the 'YouTube video comment' section of my Social Media Contest.  Seriously, break out those web cams, film a short video  and add it as a video response to that one and you have a good chance of winning something.

    Also, because I love the formating of this blog and this one.  I need to find something else to count besides my slowly (very) rising YouTube subscribers.  Any ideas?

    * My #1 stalker
    ** Yes, Catalina is the younJewel Staite, playing a space ship's engineer yet again.

    Subscribers: 115

    Monday, April 25, 2011

    Reasonable Breakdown

    [25] BEDA 2011

    Back to real blogging everyone, no photo cop-outs
    By everyone I mean the 2 of you who maybe read this little little secret blog of mine.
    This month has been filled with such highs and lows I feel as if I should be at neutral, zero, everything evened out.
    If that were the case then life would be boring but easy.
    It is neither of these things.
    So I am instead forced upon this (excuse the over used metaphor) emotional roller-coater of 'everything is awesome!, everything is falling apart, life is looking up, nothing is going right.
    I am physically experiencing signs of great stress that I have not felt since I did my senior thesis.
    It was supposed to be over in a month and I have no idea if it will now.
    Why must my life be so full of nonsense?
    I try and focus on the good and ignore the bad but when you are 25 years old you simply can't ignore the have to deal with it.
    Like an adult.
    I was right when I was a child, being an adult did not sound like fun.
    My favorite clothing store has the right idea...
    I want to scream.
    Yet what will I do?  I will go forward, do what I can, be responsible and reasonable, and try not to get too depressed.

    Random thing you can do to make me for me here:

    Subscribers: 115
    Check Your Focus Votes: 243
    Butterflies in Stomach: 12,759,384

    Sunday, April 24, 2011


    [24] BEDA 2011


    Normal blog post tomorrow ;)

    Mind sending a vote our way?

    Saturday, April 23, 2011

    A family of 4

    [23] BEDA 2011

    It's been a lazy day today.
    I've been enjoying being with my family, all 4 of us, for one of the last times for a while.
    It's going to be interesting in the months to follow, but right now it's the 4 of us.
    I had such momentum yesterday cleaning, today I just want to curl up with my book and some food.
    I will film some stuff today, I'm sure.
    I'll just focus most of my time around my family.

    Oh and...
    Do it:

    Friday, April 22, 2011

    too busy to blog

    [21] BEDA 2011

    I hung out with my parents today, more fun than I had suspected.
    Currently I'm digging through the mess that is my current stuff and my old stuff and putting it into the classic 3 piles:
    keep, toss, garage sale
    I'll be the first to tell keep and toss pile are the highest.
    BEDA is more annoying then VEDA
    off with you
    go vote:

    Thursday, April 21, 2011

    back at home...

    [21] BEDA 2011

    My parents like Futurama!  hahaha
    Anyways, I'm currently at my childhood home in Brea, CA
    Sitting in my old bedroom.
    Looking at the massive pile of STUFF that I need to go through.
    Tomorrow is going to be a long day.

    If you have not voted today, you should!!

    Tuesday, April 19, 2011

    Oh Canada!

    [19] BEDA 2011

    Let me just say this:
    Nanalew is such a nice helpful person, even at 1am (for her)
    That is all.
    Something exciting is coming tomorrow (or late tonight/early tomorrow morning)

    Monday, April 18, 2011

    artsy high school student

    [18] BEDA 2011

    Happy Monday!
    Sorry guys, I'm gonna have to hold off on the YouTuber reviews till later this week.
    Entering this contest and editing is taking all of my time!
    (Though I am planning a very cute VEDA video, look out for that later today)
    Till then, please enjoy these artsy photos I took when I was in high school...and try not to groan out-loud.

    Sunday, April 17, 2011

    I'M 25!

    [17] BEDA 2011

    It's official, I'm 25 today.
    I've had a great day and my party yesterday was so much fun.
    I really wish this weekend would never end, it's 10pm and I can smell my birthday cake baking... (late, I know)
    Good good weekend.
    I'm all smiles. =)

    Subscribers: 113
    Days left of B/VEDA: 13

    Saturday, April 16, 2011

    This counts as a blog post

    [16] BEDA 2011
    Not here today, but it's one of my favorite places.
    VEDA might be late, but well worth it.

    Friday, April 15, 2011

    It's the remedy

    [15] BEDA 2011

    Hey guys, I'm going to take a break from the YouTuber reviews today.  My boyfriend and I are filming a super secret last minute awesome project and we have to make sure we are completely ready for when the others get here.  I'll say this much...there is a snare drum in the living room...

    So tomorrow is my birthday party, a full day of fun if all goes right.  Ya never know with these types of overly planned things.  Anyways, tomorrow's vlog will be awesome but tomorrow's blog will probably be short and cop-out ish.

    That's fine...time to go watch some Pompalmoose videos *hint hint*

    Thursday, April 14, 2011

    spreading the youtube love...all over your face

    [14] BEDA 2011

    Jag älskar dig!  That means I love you in Swedish. I want to learn how to speak Swedish and have been doing so by looking on YouTube...heh

    Anyways, on to the next 3 nerdfighters/wizard rockers/youtubers:

    As promoused, I'll talk next about LukeConard.  Chair wheeling, auto-tuning, head of Echo Base.  (I don't know what that means...he was just the first guy at Echo Base...I think...nevermind.)  Luke is half of the awesome that is ALL CAPS and a part of the wizard rock gods, The Ministry of Magic.  I actually entered a music video contest they had once here.  Pretty good if I do say so myself.  Anyways, Luke is just a friendly talented guy.  Thumbs up Luke, you are awesome!

    Next is communitychannel, she's interesting to say the least.  She does a lot of 'split screen' sort of things where she is having conversations with herself.  She does this very well and very convincingly.  Sometimes I forget she's not a twin. (she's not) She tends to talk about normal things that bother her, and it seems as if in each video she ends up either coming on to herself or the audience.  If I could sum her up in two words they would be: unexpected and entertaining.

    Another person who used the 'split screen' technique frequently and well is wheezywaiter. He tends to call the other hims clones.  He talks about news but in a silly explosion filled way.  He's very creative and does a lot from his computer chair.  Yet I love the episodes when he goes outside, or gets coffee. "I love it when the coffee is done."

    Now, I realize I've only been listing popular stars on YouTube.  This is intentional.  I did make a video a bit ago where I talked about not just popular YouTubers but also some little known ones.  That video is here. Fun fact: I'm wearing that dress right now =P  Anyways, my friend Josie posed a similar video today, called Pay it Forward and she 'tagged' me in it! (Thanks Josie!!)  I will have to make another video like this later this month or soon, and this time I'll talk about the non-partnered, lesser known yet just as awesome, YouTubers.  So look for that soon.  I'll see ya all tomorrow with 3 more of the big guys.

    Later days!

    Wednesday, April 13, 2011

    More Tubers!

    [13] BEDA 2011

    Hey guys, for todays blog, I'm going to give you another 3 YouTubers that I adore.  Here we go:

    Ok, lets talk about iJustine.  Now I know iJ is super popular and even if you don't watch YouTube regularly you've probably seen her sometime.  Her videos are comprised of music video song spoofs, ask iJ videos, and Vlog University videos.  She was one of the first to realized the job potential of posting videos on YouTube and it is her main (if not only) job.  By the size of her new apartment, I know she's making more money than me.  She also has so many secondary channels with long random videos that get more views in their first hour than all my videos combined get...ever.  She truly is something to aspire to for anyone wanting to make YouTube videos for a carrier, even when she does tend to get annoying after her 5th video of the day...

    The next person is Catrific.  I'm not sure why I like her so much, her videos are very basic and vanilla and even flat out boring t times.  She works at DailyBooth and mostly just vlogs about that or really basic normal things.  She's friends with a few other popular female vlogers I'm into so that's how I found her.  I still watch her though, it might because she's kind, cute, and in that circle.

    Finally, for today, I'll mention Alex Carpenter.  I found out about him when I was showing my friends Andrea and Andy an ALL CAPS music video.  Andy said he knew those guys and their friends who also had a band and then showed me The Remus Lupins which is Alex's wizard rock band.  (Andy went to high school with Alex)  That's when I got into wizard rock.  Through Alex's music I found other wizard rock band and found out Kristina Horner and Luke Conard (I'll talk about him tomorrow) were in different wizard rock bands of their own.  The cool thing about Alex is he does solo stuff and writes songs about other nerdy things as well.  He is sort of blurring the line for me when it comes to 'YouTube Stars' and real people.  Good job, Alex, for being a real person! (you know what I mean...)

    Tuesday, April 12, 2011

    The People in Your Neighborhood

    [12] BEDA 2011

    They're the people that you meet as you're walking down the street...well if by street you mean your YouTube subscriptions...
    Yes, I know I'm so boring and all I talk about is vlogging here, but I don't care.  It's my blog and if I want to spend the time talking about my favorite vloggers, then French the lama I will.

    First I have to start with Tessa Violet aka Meekakitty.  She was the first YouTuber that I found and indirectly introduced me to the world of online vlogging, wizard rock, and nerdfighteria.  She's a formal model, nerdy, awkward awesome person.  she mostly does just vlogs but lately has dived into the world of origional songs and music videos.  She's too cute not to at least check out.

    Then there is the world of Kristina Horner...she appears so many places it's hard to pin down just one.  Her main channel is italktosnakes but she was also the Monday girl of fiveawesomegirls and is one half of the awesome nerd band ALLCAPS.  There is also her second channel kristinahorner which is pretty much as awesome as her first.  She sings wizard rock and other nerdy-themed songs and she vlogs.  I don't know, I just really think she's great.

    And last for today, I'm going to mention Shawna aka Nanalew.  She is the YouTuber I see myself the most similar to in our style of YouTube videos.  (My non-Cats ones that is)  A lot of her videos are music videos made to other peoples music, short skits, short silly web shows, and general vlogging.  What's interesting is she is an openly religious YouTuber and I am an openly non-Religious YouTuber.  I don't see, however, how that has much do to with how I feel similar to her, just an interesting fact.

    That's all I'll write about today.  Perhaps I'll do another 3 YouTubers tomorrow, this was fun.
    Later days!

    Monday, April 11, 2011

    some words of the day

    [11] BEDA 2011

    It's getting more real.
    I don't quite have the key.
    The grass is always greener.
    Can't I just be?

    A bit of lame poetry inspired life.
    I'm, 4 minutes in and already I knew Eat Pray Love was a bad idea.

    Sunday, April 10, 2011


    [10] BEDA 2011

    OK, I hate starting these blogs with VEDA news, but I have to.  I'm not sure the 'rules' but I am going to attempt to film today but I'm not sure if I'll be able to upload till tomorrow...NOT SURE. 
    Sorry, today is happy and kinda sad at the same time.  Weird month...weird month...keeps getting weirder.
    I am going to Jim's sister, Alley's confirmation today, so it should be a fun and Catholic filled day, haha.  I'm learning more and more the more I hang out with Jim's family.  It's educational.  So because of that, I have no idea when we'll get back and when I can film today...
    So 10!  A third of the way there!  w00t!!

    Saturday, April 9, 2011

    Just another day...

    [9] BEDA 2011

    Oh dear, it's starting to get hard to keep doing this.  I have things to do, people to see, sleep to have.
    It's not the worst actually, VEDA is much harder.
    I have to do my JV video tonight...sometime...I'll be more than busy tomorrow and Monday...well...there's work...
    I'm not complaining, I just want to document my level of struggle each day on the path.
    SO, a week from tomorrow I'll be 25...what a weird age.  It's the final age that gives you something extra.  Less exciting then the last, however it's still kind of a big deal.  I'll no longer be 'on my early 20s' so much. I'll just be 'in my 20s'  and then a year from now I'll be 'in my late 20s'  Scary.  That's just so close to 30.  Well, whatever...not much else I can say about it right now.  It's the 17th...
    ARgggg, why is this month taking so's so slow..hahahahaha
    Ok, bye.

    Friday, April 8, 2011

    le sigh

    [8] BEDA 2011

    Tired today, working, editing, packing, bath, painted nails...
    Watching the sun set currently, well...get lower in the sky at least.
    When you only are at work for two hours and you have the rest of the day to watch Dr. Who and sit goes by very slowly.
    I feel as if I should be writing poetry or something...listening to Enya and burning incense as I create beautiful things.
    For now though, I'll just clean my room, pack things, and finish season three of Dr. Who.
    Who knows what the night will bring, friends and more I'm sure.
    Not much to report, melancholy is an understatement.
    Sighhhhhhhhh =/

    Thursday, April 7, 2011

    It's like fan fiction...with friends

    [7] BEDA 2011

    Uggg, don't even get me started on fan fiction. I'm not a fan...UNLESS it Cats. Weird, I know, but it makes sense if you think about it. Take a very song/dance driven show with little character canon and a interpretive plot...good for fan fiction. anything else is just straying from the authors original ideas too much in my eyes. So yes, I've written Cats fan fiction before (we're taking at age 13 here people). Yet, I may or may not be plotting with an old friend to resurect the old story and make it internet worthy *cough*lostcause*cough*
    But this is not what I'm going to talk about, blog readers (reader) I'm here to talk to you about the joys of online RPGs. No, not table top RPGs like D&D or even MMORGSakfkaweoWHATEVERTHEYARECALLED like WOW. I'm here to talk to you about the message board based, writing, story game thing. For these, anything goes for me...not just Cats.  It's really hard to I won't and just point you to one I created a few month ago...out of boredom and the desire to just create a game. (setting it up is almost more fun than so many games from my childhood...) I won't even set you guys up, I'm just gonna post the ad as you'd see it in a RPG advertising forum.  Enjoy, laugh at me, join it.  Do what you like...but I just wanted to share another nerdy thing about me that most people don't know I do.'s one of those days...

    Hoggy Warty


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    Come to Hoggy Warty for the true Hogwarts experience.

    Wednesday, April 6, 2011

    Old Photos!

    [6] BEDA 2011

    It's already only day 6 and I'm feeling the stress of blogging and vlogging every day.  It's just another thing nagging at me each day to do.  I feel though, that if I can do this, see it through, then I'll be a bit better at talcking deadlines and being productive EVERY DAY.  It's a hard thing but I think I'll be able to make it.  Another thing I've realized: talking about blogging and vlogging in my blog is way too meta and boring.  So, I shall dig into my old photobucket account and show you all some OLD photos, for fun.

    First time in New York City

    Knitting with my mom

    Hanging out with my Swedish family


    That's all guys, see you tomorrow!

    Tuesday, April 5, 2011

    So Excited!

    [5] BEDA 2011

    OMGaaaaa!!! So excited!!!  I'm going to a concert tonight and I can't wait!!
    I hope in the rules for VEDA you can vlog and post it the day long as its filmed in the day...OH WELL
    Perhaps I'll upload tonight, we'll just have to see...
    Sorry for the randomness of todays BEDA...I just can't wait for the show tonight...hehe
    I've got to go get ready...

    Later days!

    Monday, April 4, 2011

    At least my headache's gone...nope, there it is

    [4] BEDA, 2011

    So I launched my Social Media contest today.  I left this site out mainly because it's more of a side project, writing, personal, sort of thing.  I'd like to gain viewers and subscribers and followers on the sites used in the contest...not really this one.  I would not mind if others read this blog, of course, but it's not really a concern like the others are.  I don't often promote this blog and don't really ever plan to.  I can think of one other person who reads it and that's just fine.  I write for myself here anyways.

    Today is the first full day of work I've had this month (Fridays tend to be short) and so far it's been fairly normal.  Next month will be a change (not at work but how I get to and from it)  so I won't take April for matter how much I might want to get it over with.  VEDA is helping as well, yet I'm not sure how doing VEDA during the work week is going to go... usually I film videos for JelliclesVlog and TheCreatingCat never on it might get down to the wire with posting at 11pm each night...eeep!

    Ugggg, I waited a few hours to see if I could come up with anything more to post here...guess not.

    Sunday, April 3, 2011

    so much makeup and film today...

    [3] VEDA, April 3rd 2011

    Today is BUSY.  I recorded footage for 3 videos and have to still edit yet a 4th.  What have I gotten myself into with this YouTube business, really...  It's all fun though...I'm not complaining.  The VEDA/BEDA thing though...might become overwhelming soon...we'll see.

    I have to finish cleaning up my home bedroom before I head back to LA, which should be in the next few hours.  Gonna try and edit too...even though Tropic Thunder is on and I kind of want to take a nap.

    Well, I guess I'll take off.  VEDA video is posted, JV video tomorrow, and main channel video tomorrow (a contest!) and I guess another VEDA video for tomorrow as well...

    Later days!

    Saturday, April 2, 2011

    Day 2

    [2] BEDA - April 2nd, 2011

    Sorry, this will be short.  I don't know if I'll have another chance to write anything today.  It's going to be a sad long day.  I'm not sure if I'm going back to LA tonight or tomorrow or Monday.  I guess I'll just have to play it by ear.  Take care everyone, see you tomorrow.

    Friday, April 1, 2011

    BEDA 2011 starts off!

    [1] BEDA 2011 

    Well here we are, April.  Finally, I thought this month would never come.  March was a very stressful, bad month.  I am looking to the future with optimism and excitement.  I'll be turning 25 this month, a scary age, and my day to day life will be going through some changes.  It was almost a reason to not blog or vlog every day.  Yet, it is exactly the reason I decided to do it.

    Right now I'm at my parents house, in my old room...going through my old toys and keepsakes.  I am attempting to avoid my natural horder tendencies as I go through the mess and get rid of (at the very least) half of all it.  Some of it is easier than I thought.  (the plastic jewelry, the drawings from 5th grade) and some of it is just as hard as ever (my beanie baby collection, the boxes of craft supplies)  I suppose in the end, if I can get rid of half of everything, I'll be satisfied.  And by that I mean my mom will be satisfied.

    It is 4:47 right now, the sun is bright, it's warm, and I've yet to film my vlog for the day (YouTube's webcam app is not working...might just use imovie).  There's been no pranks made on me yet and I've yet to pull one myself.  That's just fine.  I have been enjoying the fake movie/tv trailers though.  My favorite is this one.

    That's all for today, the rest of the BEDA posts will probably not be this long or nice...but who knows.  Later today I'll post my VEDA video here.

    See ya tomorrow guys.

    Thursday, March 31, 2011

    BEDA and VEDA

    Am I crazy?  Wait, don't answer that quite yet...well...sure, answer it.  Anyways, the answer is probably.  I am attempting BEDA (Blog Every Day in April) and VEDA (Vlog Every Day in April)  Why, you ask, am I doing this in the month that not only contains my birthday but also a stressful all be it good crazy experience that is new and strange and hopefully never have to experience again. (Don't ya love my vagueness?)  Well, the answer is (other than just actually being crazy) is because it would be an interesting case study.  Interesting to me only I suppose, but that's just fine.  So here's the deal.  For 30 days I will post here in this blog (not the .net...that's professional only...BY THE WAY I changed my wordpress to  So go there and see my arty stuff)  In addition to Blogger posts for 30 days straight I'll also be posting short unedited talky Vlogs in my second YouTube channel. That's over here for those of you who don't know. So I am crazy, silly, and excited about this whole BEDA/VEDA thing.
    Also, important note, watch & listen to YouTube videos before posting comments...*sigh* *headdesk* *crawls away*  ><
    Anyways, see you tomorrow...and the next day and the next...

    Wednesday, January 12, 2011

    Video Projects, STUFF, and Hogwarts

    Hi everyone (the maybe 2 people who occasional read this, haha),

    Sorry I've been absent from posting this month and sorry my last post was mostly a cop-out.  Anyways, 2011 so far has been for the most part okay.  Nothing to amazing but nothing too horrible either.  I have started some exciting new projects and planning others.  The first one started on the first Monday of the month and my contributions will be every Monday from now until oblivion (okay, maybe not).  It's a fiveawesomegirls inspired collaboration channel on YouTube called JelliclesVlog.  And yes, its all Cats fans...  What can I say, they are my kind of people.  The other projects are also video based, a few secret music videos and a semi-secret mini documentary series I'll be doing with Jim.  All I can say so far is it's called Adventure Science and it will eventually be on his channel, TheLongHolidays.

    In other news, I have slowly been trying to save money for my next costume project but it's taking longer that I expected.  Also, now I have my camera payments as well...*sigh*  Why can't I just be in an awesome internet band and go on tour and not have a day job.  Kristina Horner, I will steal your life!  Okay, that sounded a bit creepier than I intended.  Seriously Kristina Horner, I'm just admiring your life...that all I promise you.  Hahaha

    Do you ever feel like you have too many intrests?  Too many in a way that it physically takes up your life, not just your time.  For instance, I LOVE film editing and computer I have 2 computers, 3 external hard drives, 4 cameras (one HUGE studio one) and more cords and data CDs than I can count.   That's one hobby.  Then, I am a costume maker.  I have a sewing machine, crates (yes more than one) of supplies such as fabric, paint, glue, foam, fluff, and other things that take up space, 4 wig heads and 5 nice expensive wigs and tons of cheap ones, not to mention all the finished costumes I've made (one which includes a hoop skirt).  That's hobby number 2.  Then I own countless DVDs and Books and Sketchbooks.  Then there's my cheap colored pencils and my expensive prisma pencils.   (You've noticed I've stopped numbering the hobbies as they start to blend together)  I have countless t-shirts for wearing, cutting up and wearing/selling, making into pillows or quilts 'one day'  Then, makeup...normal girley 'daily' makeup and two large containers of stage makeup.  I'm trying to re-teach myself guitar, so there's that huge thing.  Oh, and I'm a clothing and shoes...lots of them.  So yeah, I'm trying to simplify my live via getting rid of stuff...but the fact of the matter is: the mere thought of giving up one of my hobbies (and in some cases, potential future careers) just about breaks my heart.  So, mostly non-existent blog readers...what should I do?

    I'm becoming a bit of a Harry Potter nerd, thanks to discovering wizard rock *headdesk*
    It's actually kind of awesome but to be active in the HP fandom you're going to eventually chose a house to belong to.  That is, a Hogwarts house.  Gryffindor, Ravenclaw, Slytherin, or Hufflepuff.  So, I picked one that I felt best represented myself and what I'd like to be like.
    Which house are you in?

    Why I'm not Ravenclaw - I have self-diagnosed mild Dyscalculia and I can't spell despite my love of reading and writing.  But I'm still creative and again, LOVE reading and writing.

    Why I'm not HufflepuffBecause I refuse (hey it worked for Harry and Slytherin), not because they are lame or anything...I just don't feel like it's really where I belong.

    Why I'm not Slythrein - Come on, really?  I'm too empathetic to be that self serving.  It's an apparent  weakness of mine, but I find it hard to be mean for no reason.

    Why I AM Gryffindor - I may not strike you as the bravest, in fact I've had trouble with phobia's in the past, but I am determined to change that.  I like the good guys, I like being on the winning team, and not to take words directly from the Sorting Hat Song but I feel I'm pretty chivalrous.  Less meaningful reasons include being a feline lover (ever since The Lion King, I've adored lions)  and I'm an Aries, fire element.  I don't believe in astrology at all and I'm not even sure if Gryffindor has officially been associated with fire...but yeah, the comparison was made in my head, deal with it.
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